Words to Live By

"...Some times you just feel everything and nothing at once.

sometimes, you find yourself smiling, while missing someone at the time

you can absolutely love someone, and all the while trying to hate them.

life comes without gaurantees, except that smiling will brighten your face, laughing will enhance

you eyes, and falling in love will changing you life...."

The Strength of a Man

just in time for father's day

The strength of a man isn't seen in the width of his shoulders.
It's in the width of his arms that encircle you.

The strength of a man isn't in the deep tone of his voice
its in the gentle words he whispers

The strength of a man isn't how many buddies he has.
It's how good a buddy he is with his kids.

The strength of a man isn't in how respected he is at work
It's in how respected he is at home

The Strenght of a man isn't in how hard he hits
It's in how tender he touches

The strength of a man isn't in the hair on his chest
it's in his heart, that lies within his chest

the strength of a man isn't how many women he's loved
its in being true to one woman.

The strength of a man isn't in the weight he can lift
its in the burdens he can carry.

I Wann tell you A Secret

Never say Never

Kay so this is my new favourtie song! love these boyz

16 @ war

Ain't no daddy's where i'm from it's just mad mother

and eyes that still seem they can't look past colour

why am i disrespected by someone i should brother

and why girls feel pretty asnd constantly heat each other.

bad air in my lungs...man i can't brathe...

my eye buring from all the dirt and debris

and it's 3rd defree emotionliss on the scene

it's like a disease the way Y'all kill me

I'm 16 and i should have to feel like this

I'm 16 every young boy out ther wanna kiss me

I'm 16 and me and my momma going through it

Around here cool is another word for fool

if he smoke then she smoke i gotta smoke too

no what woulod i do if i didn't have a clue

I'm 16 y.o. asking God oh why oh?

If my clothes ain't tifht then he ain't gon like me

Eyes on the prize so the next girl dress just like me

I'm so full of promises but why promise if i'm just be rewarded by bad action

To him i'm just a transcation

I'm 16 and i shouldn't have to feel like this

16 every young boy out there wanna kiss

16 and and my momma going though it

16 on the block 16 on the block

I'm 16 @ war

And you could Wait to Grow Up

Why Do We Need Friends

We need friends for many reasons,

all thoughtout the four seasons.

We need firneds to comfort us

when we are sad,

and to have fun with ur when we are glad.

We need friends to give us good advice.

We need someone we can count

on to treat us nice.

We need friends to remember us

once we have passed

sharing memories that will always last

You Can't Make It On Your Own

in our acting academy class, all of us were split up into three group, and given a challenge. our challenge was to meet contacts in the acting as a professional actor, a photopgrapher who specializes in actor headshots, a professional producer, an acting school, and lastly an acting agency in Toronto. for each contact we found, we had to take a picture with the person as well as get their business card. but the biggest part of the challenge was to make some kind of a conection with that person whcih could benefit the class. my group had won the first challenge so we wanted to continue our streak. our biggest road-block was trying to find an acting acency since on of us were able to make it all the way to toronto. so my group hat to come up with a plan B. to make up for losing that contact. We came up with two etra contact as special guests our biggest contact was getting the professinal photographer to come in and take headshots of our class free our charge!

though the whole ecperience i learnt that in certain industries like the entrainment one it is near impossible to get anywhere without how those contact and connection. i had always known that as actors we needed to have contacts asn a network of people but after completing this challenge it showed me just how improtant it is. also that you have to have the right people to make it big time!

this Made my day

Words to live By

imperfection is Beauty, madness is genius and it's better to be absolutely ridiculous than absolutely boring

An unforgetable day

this week we had a very special guest in our acting academy class her name is Olunike Adeliyi she's and actor who live in Toronto and stars on one of my favourite shows Flashpoint. it turns out to be that Olunike was a former student of my current teachers. she came to talk us about her experiences in the acting industry, and how she go to where she is now. and i have to say that that whole entire hour and 2o minutes that she was in our class was a simply inspiring!

some of the best adivce i have ever gotten came from that day. the one thing that i will never forget is when she talked about not letting people take advange of you by knowing yourself and why you want, she said that you have to make sure you are confident and don' t let any one try and convince you that you need them.

Olunike was truly a blessung to our class. she changed my perspective on how i see the film industry and made me aware of so many things i never thought about.

auditions

yesterday I had my audition of my school's Mainstage play. and it was definitely a never wracking experience to say the least. it was funny up until the last minute before my audition I was fine I was laughing it up and having fun with all of my friends who were also auditioning watching them going in one after the other. maybe it had to do with the fact that I was the very last addition that the would be seeing. I was standing at the door waiting for my turn to go in, and all of a sudden a wave of worry and anxiety came over me, (and on top of all of that I really had to pee lol.) but in the end I held my head up, took a deep breath and did what i came to do, and made sure I had fun doing it too! although I didn't get a part in the play, I still have fun and it was one more experience form me to learn from. and on the bright side i am now one of two student stage managers of the production, I guess all those years of being back stage are finally paying off :D

self-less vs selfish

Kay so, I think of myself someone who will do just about anything for the people I love and care about. whether they need money, a shoulder to cry one or just some one to talk to out of boredom. often times I will but the needs and feeling of my friends before mine own. I am the type of person that will give up my lunch for the day so that my best friend can eat,and I don't do these thing with expecting anything in return.

But here's the problem, the minute I begin to think about myself first and what I need. I am known as a selfish. so at what point does puttin your own needs above others make you selfish?

Words to Live By

Happy moments, Praise God
Difficult moments, Seek God
Quiet moments, Worship God
Painful moments, Trust God
Every Moment, Thank God

Unforgiven

Over the March break part of my home work was to watch a academy award winning or nominated film. i decided to watching the movie that won the year i was born.

the 1992 Academy award winner for best picture was Unforgiven staring Clint Eastwood, Morgan Freeman, Gene Hackman, and Richard Harris.A group of prostitutes in Big Whiskey, Wyoming, offers a $1000 reward to whoever can kill two cowboys who disfigured one of them. The story follows an aging outlaw and killer who takes on one more job years after he had hung up his guns and turned to farming. This movie is definitely A dark Western that deals frankly with the uglier aspects of violence and the myth of the Old West. Will (Clint Eastwood's characters) has now gone back to his old ways of killing for money. Through out the whole movie Will is trying to convince himself that his has change has he is only doing this job for the money. i found it interesting that after years of giving up that life style, getting sober, getting marries and having kids, that will was able to just drop everything to go chase after two wanted men. It really brings meaning to the saying old habits die hard. and it transfers to real life. so many times we drop bad habits and transform our lifestyle completely but as soon as thing get bad we automatically resort to our old ways. this movie really opened my eyes to how we love our comfort zones as how in a blink of an eye we find ourselves back in the situations we were originally trying to run form. although at first the movie doesn't seem like one I would have watched I found it quite enjoyable and i would definitely watch it again knowing that I'd find a new message.

He likes me...He likes me not...

Now that I'm at the final few months of high school I can say with all honesty that the worst part would have to be dealing with having a crush. some boys are just so think headed and immature. while girls can make having a crush the biggest thing in their lives. while the boys only goal it see how long it takes to get into a girls plants.

in all honesty high school realtionships suck my advice just wait until after high school to start looking for "the one"

Words to Live By

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

And the Oscar goes to...

Kay so two weeks ago the Academy Awards were on (yes i know i a little behind, but better late than never) and i found the show OK, especially when the most exciting parts of the program were Jennifer Lopez's bubble wrap dress and some one getting "Kanye West"ed during their acceptance speech. I thought that Steve Martin and Alec Baldwin did a good job as co-hosts even if they did end the show very quick( probably since the program was running more than hour over). for me the best part had to be the dance they did to showcase the nominees for best soundtrack. i loved how they fused together all the different music and dance styles to make a masterpiece.

as for my best dressed...

i love Zoe Saldana's purple ruffles and not just because their my favourite colours!

Queen Latifah gown is my number one favourite! even if it didn't make any ones Else's best dressed. it just so simple, it fits her beautifully and and love that colour this dress has definitely inspired me when it comes to choosing my prom dress!!

Its All Over Now- the end of branding

Well the curtains are closed and the show is over.

After a very very intense week and a half of branding our acting academy class. it all came down to two one hour presentations by each group Epiphany Production Company (my team) versus Eminence Production company (the other guys) both groups did there thing and left their blood sweat and tears on the stage. my group battle thought some of the most unimaginable things like a power outage minutes before our presentation was set to being. then one more technical problem after another. but with the grace of God alone we were able to stay calm and make it though to have a very successful presentation. however the other group took it up a notch, they were quick to learn from our mistakes ultimately making there presentation run twice as smoothly as ours. in the end the winner was.....Eminence Production Company! and although my team was still heart broken from the defeat, i can say that i am happy for my other class mates in their victory because in the end we are still a class and we should be happy for each other.

Words to Live By

The road to success is not straight.

There is a curve called Failure,

a loop called Confusion,
speed bumps called Friends,

red lights called Enemies,

caution lights called Family.

You will have flats called Jobs.

But, if you have a spare called Determination,

an engine called Perseverance,

insurance called Faith,

A driver named God,

you will make it to a place called Success!

You can Trust Me.....or Not

so for the past few weeks I been have alto of issue with the people in my life and my ability to trust them. now as in every high school situation we all have our cliques and crew that we stick with. and of course i have mine. they are suppose to be the people that I can trust at all times, through the good and the bad. and for the most part I can always count on them.

But lately I have been finding it really to trust certain people in my life, there is just some kind of feeling inside my gut that is telling me that something isn't right. every day it seems to get harder to know who are the ones who aren't trying to deceive you. At times all I can do is get down on my knees and pray to God to give me gudience and to know who i can trust

Stepping Outside Of The Box

Kay so one of the assignments in Acting Academy is to create a character to play and take that character out of the four walls of the drama studio in to the outside world whether it be into the school or the mall or church etc. and see and note the way the public reacts to you character

So for the longest while i could not come up with an idea for my character i wanted to do a pregnant teen and go to my friend 's church to see how typical church folks would treat a knocked-up teenage who grew up in the church and as they would say "should know better". but after talking to other people in my class i realized that quite a few of us were doing the same thing which meant we would all probably get the same kind of reactions. So i can up with a little twist to my character what i plan to do is for anyone who is brave enough to ask about my "baby situation" i would tell them that i was raped. then i would watch their expression go from one of disgust to one of pity. so this should be a very enriching expericence. i just hope i can pull the whole thing off , or that no one blows my cover

Words to Live By

I am a promise, I am a possibility, I am a promise with a capital "P". I am a great big bundle of potentiality, And I am learning to hear God's voice, and I am trying to make the right choices
I'm a promise to be, anything God wants me to be

The Brand New Me

How do you come up with a look, that when every one sees it they know just what it stands for? how do you ensure that, that look it something new, attractive and never been done before. something that will represent you and what you stand for and at the same time stand out above every one Else's. this is the process of branding something all of us in the performing arts industry need to know a lot about. the ability to sell you talents in hopes of being chosen for the job. Or to make the process even more difficult to take the views values and goal of other members of in to the name or slogan making sure that every one is represented equally and fairly? the process of Branding even the smallest company is not a easy one. To be able to come to a successful everything about your company must be appealing to your consumers, from your name to logo, slogan, right down to the colours you chose to represent your selves. when branding you have to be conscious o fthe fact that everything you do is to impress you consumers. and the bes part of this is that i get to go throught the whole entire experinence for myself.

Don't Worry Be happy

about a week a ago i read and article called "The Vision Thing" the main context of the article focused on acting but there was on part that stuck out to me which can apply to life overall whether or not you're an actor "The only reason we want to be successful and on a series making a lot of money is we think that that's what's going to make us happy We're all striving to be happy. What we lose along the way is the realization that we can all create that happiness" i guess you could call this part of the article my Ah ha moment. for the great part of our lives we as humans are always trying to find that one thing that we think will finally makes us turly happy. but we so easily forget that its on us to make the happiness that we want and that its not necessary to want those worldy possessions to define how happy we can be. what i've realized is that i have to hold on to those little moments that i find myself laughing the hardest and simling the biggest, because those are the moments that truly define what being happy means.

* here the link for the complete " The vision Thing" article*

http://talentdevelop.com/articles/TheVisionThing.html

All About Me- My favourtie subject

All my life from as far back as I can remember, I have always had a hand in some form of the arts; whether it was being on a school dance team, to playing the flute in the concert band, and being in more than one choir to drawing for my own personal love, to being an editor for the school yearbook, to my new love of taking part in drama Productions not matter how big or small. The arts in general have always played a big part in my life and have helped to shape me into the person I am today. My deep involvement in the arts was used as a life line many times to take me out of the negative situations that I found myself in.
In the more recent years since I’ve started high school, and began to focus on drama, I have realized that drama has become a rope that constantly pulled me out of the holes I found myself in. Knowing that so much was expected of me not only by teachers but by my peers as well severed as a constant reminder in the back of my head telling me that I had to set an example. Now looking back over the years, I can clearly see that the arts not matter what discipline as easily impacted me in an undoubtedly positive way shaping me in to the well rounded and disciplined young lady I am.

The Essence of an Actor

During one of my drama classes we were asked a question, it simpily stated; "what is the essence of an actor?' Now usually i can come up with some kind of answer to the questions asked in class, but this one had me answer-less. I sat there at my desk pen in hand with a blank page in front of me i could not for the life of me come up with any form of an answer. so i did the typical teenage student thing and googled it. i found count less textbook and dictionary definitions for what the world thought it meant, yet none of these professional interpretations seemed to bee what i wanted, so i asked my friends and family and long story short i came up with nothing, about a week later Iwas watching a movie with my parents and my dad made a comment about one of the actors saying he can't see him playing any other role which reminded me of something that was said in class, which gave me my answer to what the essence of an actor was. my answer it this; the essence of an actor it their ability to blur that line between Actor and Character. its funny to think that after days of questioning people and research I came to such simple interpretation ;)