self-less vs selfish

Kay so, I think of myself someone who will do just about anything for the people I love and care about. whether they need money, a shoulder to cry one or just some one to talk to out of boredom. often times I will but the needs and feeling of my friends before mine own. I am the type of person that will give up my lunch for the day so that my best friend can eat,and I don't do these thing with expecting anything in return.

But here's the problem, the minute I begin to think about myself first and what I need. I am known as a selfish. so at what point does puttin your own needs above others make you selfish?

Words to Live By

Happy moments, Praise God
Difficult moments, Seek God
Quiet moments, Worship God
Painful moments, Trust God
Every Moment, Thank God

Unforgiven

Over the March break part of my home work was to watch a academy award winning or nominated film. i decided to watching the movie that won the year i was born.

the 1992 Academy award winner for best picture was Unforgiven staring Clint Eastwood, Morgan Freeman, Gene Hackman, and Richard Harris.A group of prostitutes in Big Whiskey, Wyoming, offers a $1000 reward to whoever can kill two cowboys who disfigured one of them. The story follows an aging outlaw and killer who takes on one more job years after he had hung up his guns and turned to farming. This movie is definitely A dark Western that deals frankly with the uglier aspects of violence and the myth of the Old West. Will (Clint Eastwood's characters) has now gone back to his old ways of killing for money. Through out the whole movie Will is trying to convince himself that his has change has he is only doing this job for the money. i found it interesting that after years of giving up that life style, getting sober, getting marries and having kids, that will was able to just drop everything to go chase after two wanted men. It really brings meaning to the saying old habits die hard. and it transfers to real life. so many times we drop bad habits and transform our lifestyle completely but as soon as thing get bad we automatically resort to our old ways. this movie really opened my eyes to how we love our comfort zones as how in a blink of an eye we find ourselves back in the situations we were originally trying to run form. although at first the movie doesn't seem like one I would have watched I found it quite enjoyable and i would definitely watch it again knowing that I'd find a new message.

He likes me...He likes me not...

Now that I'm at the final few months of high school I can say with all honesty that the worst part would have to be dealing with having a crush. some boys are just so think headed and immature. while girls can make having a crush the biggest thing in their lives. while the boys only goal it see how long it takes to get into a girls plants.

in all honesty high school realtionships suck my advice just wait until after high school to start looking for "the one"

Words to Live By

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

And the Oscar goes to...

Kay so two weeks ago the Academy Awards were on (yes i know i a little behind, but better late than never) and i found the show OK, especially when the most exciting parts of the program were Jennifer Lopez's bubble wrap dress and some one getting "Kanye West"ed during their acceptance speech. I thought that Steve Martin and Alec Baldwin did a good job as co-hosts even if they did end the show very quick( probably since the program was running more than hour over). for me the best part had to be the dance they did to showcase the nominees for best soundtrack. i loved how they fused together all the different music and dance styles to make a masterpiece.

as for my best dressed...

i love Zoe Saldana's purple ruffles and not just because their my favourite colours!

Queen Latifah gown is my number one favourite! even if it didn't make any ones Else's best dressed. it just so simple, it fits her beautifully and and love that colour this dress has definitely inspired me when it comes to choosing my prom dress!!

Its All Over Now- the end of branding

Well the curtains are closed and the show is over.

After a very very intense week and a half of branding our acting academy class. it all came down to two one hour presentations by each group Epiphany Production Company (my team) versus Eminence Production company (the other guys) both groups did there thing and left their blood sweat and tears on the stage. my group battle thought some of the most unimaginable things like a power outage minutes before our presentation was set to being. then one more technical problem after another. but with the grace of God alone we were able to stay calm and make it though to have a very successful presentation. however the other group took it up a notch, they were quick to learn from our mistakes ultimately making there presentation run twice as smoothly as ours. in the end the winner was.....Eminence Production Company! and although my team was still heart broken from the defeat, i can say that i am happy for my other class mates in their victory because in the end we are still a class and we should be happy for each other.

Words to Live By

The road to success is not straight.

There is a curve called Failure,

a loop called Confusion,
speed bumps called Friends,

red lights called Enemies,

caution lights called Family.

You will have flats called Jobs.

But, if you have a spare called Determination,

an engine called Perseverance,

insurance called Faith,

A driver named God,

you will make it to a place called Success!

You can Trust Me.....or Not

so for the past few weeks I been have alto of issue with the people in my life and my ability to trust them. now as in every high school situation we all have our cliques and crew that we stick with. and of course i have mine. they are suppose to be the people that I can trust at all times, through the good and the bad. and for the most part I can always count on them.

But lately I have been finding it really to trust certain people in my life, there is just some kind of feeling inside my gut that is telling me that something isn't right. every day it seems to get harder to know who are the ones who aren't trying to deceive you. At times all I can do is get down on my knees and pray to God to give me gudience and to know who i can trust

Stepping Outside Of The Box

Kay so one of the assignments in Acting Academy is to create a character to play and take that character out of the four walls of the drama studio in to the outside world whether it be into the school or the mall or church etc. and see and note the way the public reacts to you character

So for the longest while i could not come up with an idea for my character i wanted to do a pregnant teen and go to my friend 's church to see how typical church folks would treat a knocked-up teenage who grew up in the church and as they would say "should know better". but after talking to other people in my class i realized that quite a few of us were doing the same thing which meant we would all probably get the same kind of reactions. So i can up with a little twist to my character what i plan to do is for anyone who is brave enough to ask about my "baby situation" i would tell them that i was raped. then i would watch their expression go from one of disgust to one of pity. so this should be a very enriching expericence. i just hope i can pull the whole thing off , or that no one blows my cover